3-21-11 Planting Seeds of Intention

3-21-11  Planting Seeds of Intention

Over the past few days I have been doing a alot of "seed planting", hanging out, spending time in thought and setting my intentions for what I want to come and celebrating the full moon and Vernal-Spring Equinox...


Friday Jermey and his roomate came over and helped to do more work cleaning out all the crap my tennant left at his apartment. Its shameful he left that mess for us. We made a fire and was burning what we could so as to not have too huge of a pile for the township to haul away. I decided that if this was letting go time in order to bring in the new time I had to be serious so I got the plaque someone gave me for a wedding shower gift, it said Riccioni house Est 1989. I had given it to Jeremy but he didn't want it, and I knew I didnt want it, so nice as it was, I felt I needed to burn it to offer up this old home so that my new one can come. I explained to Mike (Jeremy's roomate) about the full moon ceremonies and encouraged him to give up some things and to ask for what his deepest desires were. He shared that he wished he could own his own deli someday and I told him what a wonderful idea and I will help him wish for it. The three of us had a pretty good day, and 70 sunny degrees and went for burgers and ice cream for dinner at Stewarts which was always the tradition for the first day of spring clean up. Mike's really into the idea of moving down to Keyport too but Jeremy wants to travel around a bit...

Saturday I did some cleaning and then I headed down towards the shore, was going to meet a friend for a pagan Ostara celebration but things got crossed and I just went over to the house on 2nd street to leave some SpiritStones and say some of the energy prayer. I also had my bike in my car and decided to go to Sandy Hook and ride it and I am so glad that I did. I only rode for 30 min but it's a start...the scenery was nice and the sun warmed me despite the wind chill. I took three SpiritStones and put them down in the sand near the surf....one for a new home....one for more income....one for a man to love me and share my life with. I sat then in the sand and watched them roll out further with each wave that came in. My card of the day had been SoulMate, that and the fact I was in the place Randy and I had spent so much time together last summer had him on my mind a lot. I told myself though no sneaking around this summer, I just won't put myself through that pain again. I sat and watched the wind surfers for a while in thier wet suits and wondered if Randy had used the one I got him yet, probably not been going to Vermont too much I figured.  I stopped and got shrimp and drove over and parked facing the bay and ate my dinner and didn't feel sad or lonely, just peaceful and content. I can do this I can be happy in Keyport with out Randy... I came home and was just settling in when I got a text-- Hi--it was Randy--I am driving to VT he said---I just got home from Sandy Hook I said--he asked how it was I said beautiful, sent him a pic and told him what I had for dinner-- my fave he texted---told him about the windsurfers and asked had he used his wet suit yet-- soon he replied---then: come up here tonight---- nah I can't---no reply----then I sent: check out the moon tonight and make some wishes, its a special one, stay safe on that snow mobile. Yeah he loves  VT and the snow and I love NJ and the shore.....he then sent me a pic of the moon from his truck and said I can see it now......make some wishes I told him......I told him my three wishes and he said good ones.....then I asked what he was wishing for and he said pokey (his word for sex)...that stung and I replied well you got the wife the kids the house and the pets guess pokey is all you need, I hope you get some. Goodnight. He knew not to bother me again .....

my bike and some scenery at Sandy Hook

I went up to bed and knelt and prayed, I prayed again about my money concerns and I felt him say I will get you some. I also prayed about Randy, and was upset with myself for getting upset with him again, and my quest for love in general, is it my fault? Do I push them all away with my britstles? But I felt he said no it's not you. That was the only answer I got. I went to sleep and as I was waking I kept hearing the song Sister Christian as I woke up so I got up and looked up the lyrics (see below) still trying to figure out what they mean to me now (if any of my readers have an theories and care to comment feel free).... But anyway I made it to mass and then headed over to a friends Jewelry party. On the way I was thinking how much my behind was sore from the bike ride the previous day and contemplating getting a padded seat but not knowing if I should spend the money when I saw a going out of business sale at K-mart...well I ran in there for 10 min and actually found a padded bike seat 1/2 off! I sure wished ask and you shall received worked this fast for me all the time! LOL But hey I have shopping angels and parking spot karma. Someone often pulls out right up front as I am pulling in and this always amazes my friends. LOL

So anyway the jewerly party was more fun than I expected. I don't wear jewerly and I don't really like going to those kind of parties but I love my friend Denise who was giving it and I really wanted to support her in her new venture, I promised to have a party for her too once I get settled in my new home. I was happy though when my friend Cecila came, because I am shy with new people belive it or not. We caught up, then she was going back to her Jam Session with her music group and she invited me to come so I did. I had a great time and she drug me up to sing a song with them and well I do love to sing but I am not good at it most of the time. They all said I did good and I sang 4 songs with them all together! I told Cecilia about my bike ride and she said she wants to go with me but she hasn't been on a bike in 40 years! Perfect I said cuz I go slow and easy and not far......yet...... We also talked of some of the fun things we did last summer and said we are going to plan some great things this year....just waiting for the weather to warm up a bit......

Singing at the Jam Session

I ended up sending this picture to Randy saying they let me sing at a Jam Session today---that's so nice he said---did you ride a lot today I asked?---sure did it was loads of fun----I am gald you had fun, bet you are heading to the hot tub now---just got out he replied----I wish I had one about now my behind still hurts from the bike....but he had no reply. I am glad we can stay friends, there's a comfort in him that I get from no other...we really are soul mates, friendship soul mates.

I want you to think about the things you want to bring to your life and plant your seeds of intention now......what do you want to grow in your gardens of life this summer and harvest in the fall? You reap what you sow........if you didn't like last years crop try something new.........

With Love and in the Light, Cassie

Night Ranger - Sister Christian

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z92bmlcmyq0

and to celebrate your blooming:

Edvard Grieg - Morgenstimmung

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUKRBeG-sGQ

Sister Christian
Oh the time has come
And you know that you're the only one
To say O.K.
Where you going
What you looking for
You know those boys
Don't want to play no more with you
It's true

You're motoring
What's your price for flight
In finding mister right
You'll be alright tonight

Babe you know
You're growing up so fast
And mama's worrying
That you won't last
To say let's play
Sister Christian
There's so much in life Don't you give it up
Before your time is due
It's true
It's true yeah

Motoring
What's your price for flight
You've got him in your sight
And driving thru the night
Motoring
What's your price for flight
In finding mister right
You'll be alright tonight

Motoring
What's your price for flight
In finding mister right
You'll be alright tonight

Sister Christian
Oh the time has come
And you know that you're the only one
To say O.K.
But you're motoring
You're motoring