5-16-11 Following The Signs
Lots of signs to follow this week........
Friday morning I woke up and was so excited about going down to get my keys and to start unpacking the things of mine that I was able to fit in my car. I was working from home till noon then use a half vacation day to go get the certified checks and take them to get the keys. Mid morning someone pulled in my driveway, which is a rare thing now days....it was an official vehicle and I thought it was the township people poking around again so of course I was annoyed already, three years of them, all their visits 100's of people, all the misery I was darn tired of them! So as the guy came up to the porch I said who are you and what are you doing on my property? He said he was from the health department and someone had reported a pile of garbage behind my house that had been here for months and they were concerned about vermin! OMG I said I can't believe them and I poured out the whole story of them to him. He said well I see you have it all on a tarp, that you have dumpsters here and are cleaning it up I will take pictures and close the case, no mess here. I started crying at that point and thanked him so much but Grrr I was mad and I told him to tell the "anonymous tipster" that my lawyer was going to hear about this!
I then got ready to head out to the bank and just before it was time to leave I got a text from Randy....Hi.....I just stared at it not knowing what to do should I just ignore him, seems so mean, should I text him to tell him I can't text with him anymore, OMG ! I decided to ignore it, I did not want anything messing with getting this house, I had lost FOUR possible homes because of showing them to him or telling him about them and he drove by...no....I ignored it and did my best to not think about him. I headed off to the bank to get my certified checks, I started to go to the one bank and realizexd there was an easier to get to branch and turned around and went that way. On the way there I passed a truck with the last name of the woman from the township who was my main contact for the buy.....hummm. The bank transaction was smooth and I headed towards Keyport, stopping at WaWa to get some lunch to take to the house to eat while I was cleaning and un-packing. When I came out there was a truck parked next to me that said township on it....humm to me that was two signs that it was them messing with me! So I said a quick prayer to Saint Michael and asked him to fight this battle for me, and I put it out of my mind, I had him and I had Tony my lawyer. I reflected on how there have always been Michaels and Anthonys in my life who were helpful to me in times of need...
I got to Keyport and got my transaction handled and headed to the house, reflecting on the fact that my landlords name is Vic, my ex-business partner! LOL I thanked Mike and I told him I would send him some business and when I am ready to buy I will be in touch oh and one more thing....if you see that woman moving out of Randy's house let me know cuz I am not talking to him unless she does its just bad karma. Ok I will he said, I saw him outside fixing his fence the other day...Oh that's great I said maybe he's getting the idea again to sell it, it had been our plan 4 yrs ago to sell our homes, get one down there together and also a cabin in Vermont... I then happily headed over to my new home, it was smaller than I had remembered it but I just need to live with less I told myself cut down on the clutter of my life. I spent the afternoon cleaning and unpacking and putting things in closets and pantries and linen closets... I took a pocketful of Spiritstones and put them in all the windows and closets and such in every room. I found the bag of the ones I had around the old house and felt that I should put them around the outside of the property on sat. I worked till I was exhausted and I headed towards home...the old home.... When I got home I checked and Randy had texted me Hi again, so I texted Mary and asked what should I do, she said oh it wont hurt to say Hi but dont mention the move....course I was ahead of her, I texted Hi back.....I am off Memorial Day Weekend....oh good for you that's great.....it was a premonition he texted.......I am off 20-31st I said.....wow he said.....I am moving that's why.....where to he asked? That's when I told him that I am afraid to tell him, that I think "the wife" put a curse on me and made me lose all the other homes.........that's silly he said.......The I said sunset, laurelhurst, middlesex, ridge four is not a coincidence and besides I asked you to use your powers and help me figure out where to go and you did not. He had no reply for that and I left it alone.......let it be, just let it be I felt. If God wants us together HE will direct the steps of our paths so that they cross, I leave it to fate.... my choices in this matter have only brought me down dead end paths.....
Saturday I woke up all achey but determined to take some more things down in my car and do as much cleaning and unpacking that I could accomplish, besides I wanted to be in my new place. I posted a moving party on facebook for next Friday and Saturday from 1-5pm for whoever could stop in, and reflected on the fact that despite the fact I had so many "friends" there were few I could ask, and of those even fewer who would come help me. I thought of Randy and wished I could ask him, I knew he'd give me at least a little of his time, but I knew I could not ask. I got in the car and headed down and guess who texted me soon as I pointed my car in that direction......yup Randy. He asked what I was doing today and I said going to new house to do some work, I'm working today, I fixed my fence though drive by and go see.....I already know I texted back.....then got to thinking oh he's going to think I drove by when I promised not to. I have a friend who lives around the corner from you, he told me, I told him to let me know if he ever saw a moving van in front of your house and her leaving.......SOON was his reply. Yeah well your soon takes years and besides she's giving you pokey now....not really was his reply, of course I wasn't sure which statement he was addressing but I went with the pokey one and replied: the story always keeps changing....`That shut him up and I happily worked for a few hours, sweeping the basement and shed, unpacking cleaning having a grand time. I needed a break so I decided to make a Walmart run.....so I went past his house to see his new fence, it was looking better...but his Christmas lights were still up..... So I texted him to say fence looks good and you should take those lights down and see if you can find my purple ones sometime while the wife is away.. he replies ok, thanks and do you want to get a drink? I replied that I was at Walmart was dirty sweaty and I am pretty sure there are cobwebs in my hair..... You are turning me on he sent back.... Sheese men! Don't go flirting with me you are NOT getting any pokey from me, I am too good to be anyone's mistress.... Oh was all he had to say. I then asked him if I could borrow the paint sprayer I got him to do the wood patio set that was left by the last tenants. Yup sure can to which I replied probably be ready for painting memorial day weekend, maybe I can get it before you head up to Vermont to which he said he also had to do the fence so I said you do yours first that way I know you got it working before I borrow it. Yeah I gotta clean it and prime it he said.... It just may come in handy to be neighbors....
Sunday I went down to the new house again to take a few things and get a little work done. I had asked Jeremy to call me if he wanted to go, well he called but not till 1pm and I was already down there. I was very tired today and I debated going home early and taking a nap, but I had said to Randy that maybe I'd meet him since I didn't go sat night...I wanted to tell him that the I think the dream he had about where I am going to live was right, I had come in to my home from a different direction and noticed it was on a triangle intersection , and across from that was a deli/convience store. Randy had dreamed a small temporary rental, on a triangle intersection with a restaurant across the street last summer! If you don't believe me (click here to view) . I had wanted to see him and tell him that but it wasn't meant to be.... I never heard from him and I finally texted him about 4:30.... are we getting together today? ...where are you was his reply.....at the new house, am done here for today and won't be back till Friday......I'm gonna go home and clean out my car he sent back.........Oh OK I said. Now for a minute or two several thoughts ran through my mind: see he doesn't want to see me now he knows he won't get pokey....maybe he's offended because I won't invite him to see the new house.....maybe "the family" is waiting for him at home......maybe he wants to go hang with a buddy......or maybe he is just cleaning out the car. I know that the smartest thing to do is accept what people say at face value, it is their responsibility to speak truth or not it's not your responsibility to spend time and energy trying to figure the truth out. I have wasted far too much of my life and my energy doing that all for naught, so please try to just believe what people tell you......trust me there is such simplicity in that......
Sunday evening my buddy Mike called me as I had e-mailed him about why did he leave my meetups again, that man is more like me that I realized., maybe we are related! LOL I talked to him about his friend issues and I asked him about my Randy issue and he said see you are like me the one who loves you the most you treat the worst, he probably blew you off Sunday because you are being such a baby and not letting him come see your new place. I did end up sending Randy an e-mail Sunday night before I went to bed, asking him if he remembered the house he saw me living in in the dream he had last summer, I told him that the one I am in has everything he described except that it's not across from a restaurant and could it possibly be something else? I woke up Monday morning and he had replied that he would have to draw me a picture as it was very clear in his mind what he saw and it maybe a small store... At that moment I knew he HAD seen me in THIS house and I knew how connected we really are on a level that is far far beyond this earthly plane with all its limitations. Sure he is who he is will all his wounds and his damage but I wrote him back and told him then that as soon as I get the C of O and start moving in I will let him know so he can come see it. It's time to stop hurting over all the things that I want from him that he is not or is not giving to me and to just love him the way that he is without asking him to be anything that he is not or give to me anything he doesn't want to. The love I speak of is going to be a platonic love but that isn't anything less than and in fact I believe often its much stronger than romantic love. And the basis of any real and true romantic partnership......
Today I want you all to look around for signs in your own lives, I am sure there are many you are missing or even ignoring. Some will be small and faded, some will be hidden by bushes, some of course will be wrong too, then others will be like huge flashing neon billboards blasted across skyscrapers! PAY ATTENTION, pray for guidance and discernment, and don't ever be afraid to follow a sign and take a new direction because after all like Wendy's spoiler alert in her blog the other day...we ALL end up at the seashore eventually!
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
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