5-27-11 Roses Have Thorns

The rose's rarest essence lives in the thorns.
Rumi

5-27-11   Roses Have Thorns

This week has been one of lovely moments and also some prickly ones too.....reminding me that even roses have thorns.....

Monday night Randy came over after work and installed the light bulbs in my outdoor flood light. Some things are just so much easier for men to do than women, and some things are so much easier for women to do that men. I really don't know why people have to have so many issues with gender roles, I mean sure do whatever you can do and want to do but we were designed differently you don't have to fight that if you don't want to. But anyway It was good to see him all clean and nice in his UPS uniform, instead of all grungy and dirty in his Sears work clothes. I asked him if he wanted something to eat but he said no he had to get home as "junior" was probably cooking for him. That made me a little sad but I dealt with it, he did stay for a little while and talked and also helped me turn on my solar lights. I was lucky he took the time to come help me.

Tuesday I got up and was reading on Facebook that the preacher who had said the world was going to end 5-21-11 and it didn't happen now has changed the date to sometime in October. Oh and get this tons of people sent him all their lives savings. Reminds me of the Jim and Tammy Bakker crap from years ago when my parents bought into all that. The only thing that really bothers me though about all this  I heard that some children are very scared about this and for that reason this is so very wrong. I recall growing up and my bible thumping parents had me terrified of the rapture and the tribulation. this would be a great opportunity to teach kids about how important it is NOT to listen to others interpretations and instead read the bible for themselves. But anyway I found out that Jeremy couldn't come down to help unload the second pack rat so I posted on Facebook for help and I also e-mailed Randy who said that he would come at 9:30 after work.

Wednesday I had a good day, the little pack rat came with my outdoor stuff and other things and my good friend Pam showed up and my other good friend Al also showed up to help me unload it. We got all done by 6pm so I texted Darleen and also Randy that they didn't need to come. She was kinda glad but he said Oh Shit. I had written him the night before and as I said and he wanted to hang out a bit he said , so I told him that he could still come if he wanted and he said sure will....that was at 6:30 pm....I put what I could away cleaned up the mess from the unloading, took a shower and waited for him...by 10 pm he had not showed up. So I e-mailed him asking why didn't he show, and oh well too bad as I am busy thur and fri nights (and as it turned out I also made plans for sat too). My little voice reminded me "you teach people how to treat you" so I calmly waited for his reply......I got one 10 min later saying that the kids made food for him on the grill and that he didn't know till 9pm and that he could still come at 11pm to see me......I thought about it for a minute or two, I would still be up at 11pm and since I was on vacation probably still wide awake too, but I didn't want to reward that bad behavior of his  and decided to reply:  then u should have told me u weren't going to come... i need to rest so don't come over, have fun with your kids. I just sent that and the POF guy messaged me asking if I had moved in yet and had time to meet him yet so I said yes how about tomorrow......

I was just wrapping up and getting ready to get in bed and relax when there was a knock at my door. It was Randy, he had ridden his motorcycle over, telling the kids he was going out for a ride, which was silly to me because he was still wearing his UPS shorts. I went to the door and said what are you doing here I told you not to come. He looked all sheepish and kept saying sorry etc so I decided to let him come in and talk for a bit. He probably thought he was going to come over and have some heavy petting and such but I was in no mood for that! So I sat him down at the kitchen table and explained things. I told him he should have let me know when his plans changed and he said well I wasn't sure that when I got home there actually would be food ready for me and I was right, a cold burger left in the fridge for me, I had hoped they wanted to hang out with me. Yeah well I had hoped you wanted to hang out with me and not 3 hrs earlier you said you did, you can't just drop me like a hot potato when they call. Well I am here now he said isn't that something? Sort of I said but I am not liking you at this moment so I really don't want to see you....then I'll leave....he ended up staying a half hour longer before I kicked him out. Telling me some tales of how they treat him over there, don't mow the yard, don't clean the house, and one time his motorcycle broke down and she refused to go take his truck and go pick him up. I would have come got you, even when we weren't seeing each other I said. I know he said, I know you would....but I got her back, she asked me to fix the kids bike and I refused and she had to pay a bike shop a lot of money. Sounds like a real loving family ya got there, I really don't know what you get out of this...I get people to live with he said so I am not alone. I'd rather be alone I said and meant it. You have a good night, I am busy for awhile now maybe we can see each other next week......

Thursday I had more unpacking to do, a trip to Home Depot and in the evening I was going to an event with The Venue that Charlie had let me post on Single and Looking also. I managed to squeeze in a mini date with the POF guy too. He seemed to really like me and was texting me all afternoon but I am not so sure about him, more like someone who would be a pretty good friend but I wasn't feeling the sparks. Not sure yet what I am going to do about that one.... After putting in a full day though I started to get ready to go out, while dressing I got a text from Randy saying that he had the paint spray gun all ready for me. Awesome I texted, can you bring it over tomorrow morning and he said sure can. I was all happy about that till I got the call from Jeremy saying Mike got put in jail for not paying child support so then he didn't want to come down just now. I told him I really needed his help to get ready for my BBQ monday so we left it as tentative on if I would go up and get him. How they expect a man to pay child support when he has no job and social services gives him only $60 a month cash is beyond me. But anyway, I put that out of my mind and headed to the event. It was a nice time, I was feeling a little shy as I often do when I am not the host but soon as I walked in someone said Hi Cassie, then several more knew me and then a whole group of Staten Island gals came and sat with me and we danced all night together. Apparently some of them had been to my house for some of my big BBQ's and they were all happy I had moved closer to them and would be doing events here. All in all a good night, but I did come home by 11 as I was beat. I also got to do some talking to a few single people about how hard it is out there now, so many full of pain from their divorces that they are afraid of even trying to have relationships anymore. We all have to realize though that no matter how good something is it also will have it pain.. I also reflected on the fact that I had been divorced for 13 years, mostly because I feared the pain of trying again, but these years had been very fun years, I had met many people and done much in the way of events to help bring people together. So even in my pain of loneliness many good things had come out of it. I though on all this as I left the event and I pulled out of the parking lot and headed towards home, but feeling a little sad that I had no one to go home to.... ahh but in time in time I am certain real long lasting love to share my life with will bloom in my world....once I get all the weeds pulled out of my new garden....I did see some rose bushes hidden in there among the tall tall weeds....

Today I want you to love the thorns as well as the roses in your life, because it really is true that they often hold sweet things too....

With Love and in the Light,  Cassie


Poison Every Rose Has Its Thorn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYeZJ9_Hmwg