The only difference between an ordeal
and an adventure is your attitude! ~Author unknown
5-6-11 WHATEVER
This week I have really learned the value of whatever........with the right attitude of course... ;)
Monday one guy called who had looked at my house back in the fall, he said he was interested but when we talked price he gave me one that was lower than what I owe on the place. I said can't do it and he asked what my bottom line was and I gave him the price that the township had offered. He said he'd get back to me. I didn't give him a second thought. Then another guy and his son came to look at it and he loved the place but said it needs a lot of work, I told him I heard that so many times I know it needs work I live here, and then I said oh well no worries the township is probably still going to buy it. Then he said well let me talk to my wife.... WHATEVER I thought and frankly after all this I am relaxed about it all, I have no energy left for this place...I just want to get out and get on with my new life already! I kept wanting to call Mike and see if they took my rental offer or not but I decided to let that be. I saw the POF guy online and couldn't resist messaging and asking why did he lie to me. He said he never got my text and that his shop is in the back of that gas station. I for sure didn't see it and I also found it odd that everyone else got my texts that day but again WHATEVER.....
Tuesday Mike, my realtor called and said they are ok with the rental price offer but not the purchase price offer, they only took 9k off and he asked would I pay more than the price we talked about. Sure I said I am going to leave this up to you..WHATEVER you can do then do it. I really do feel that way too, whats a few thousand here or there based on a 30 yr mortgage? Besides I don't feel that this place is going to be my permanent home........don't know why but it's just a gut feeling I have. Speaking of gut feelings , ever since we got the news of Bin Ladens death I felt it wasn't true, and then when I heard they dumped the body at sea I felt nearly certain. So as much as I wish that good had done something to stop evil I am not buying it, and besides even if he's gone the movement is still there, the haters the people who want to kill all who don't have the same faith.......it's sad so very sad. On this issue there are no whatevers for me, but still I don't have any ideas on what I can do to help the cause.......only love as many people as I can and hope it spreads....that's the best I can do.
Tuesday evening Mary and I met with a local restaurant owner to see if he would work with us on doing an event to raise money for a charity. Mary works with so many so I made up a new branch of CassiesCalendar called Dining for Donations. He was very receptive of the idea and offered us 10% of the profits and a $10 coupon for all the diners who participate that night to go back again, I thought it a good deal so we set a date and are going to promote it. He was very impressed that I was THE Cassie from Cassie's calendar and said he had been hearing about me for a few years now. I still don't get it why I have done all this and so many know me but I still haven't found a way to make money off this, more than one time the newspaper was going to come cover one of my events and some odd thing happened and it all fell apart. But WHATEVER, when or if I am meant to make some extra money God will assist, I have always said that. He did say that he would pay me a small amount I wanted to do a monthly singles event and I said sure, I don't know how many I can bring you it could be 20 it could be 200 you just never know I said. He said that's fine I will give you something according to how many you bring in and I said fair enough lets do it after this event, charity first.
Wednesday morning I was checking my CassiesCalendar Facebook page and saw that Dustin, my older boy who's in the Air Force had replied to the I miss my Dustin post that I made, he said: Hey Happy Mothers Day I am going to be busy so won't have time to call you....I should have said WHATEVER to that one but I did not, instead I replied: Not even 10 min to call your Mom on Mothers Day? so I guess this means I am not getting a present either.......he listed a bunch of chores he had to do like going to church, cleaning his apartment, I -racing, grocery shopping and cooking etc and then said sorry I am the son who works hard and makes a good living and doesn't do drugs and lay around and get arrested and basically am a loser. Again I should have said whatever but instead I replied with No I am sorry that I was such a bad mother to you that you don't love and miss me enough to ever call me or visit me.. but don't you dare pick on your brother because no matter what he is, he's always there for me. Yes I never was one to hold back my true feelings when it comes to family LOL then again I still stand by the it's better to fight and clear the air and also the most valuable thing you can give to anyone is your time, so give your family plenty of it. In the end I muttered a WHATEVER to myself but not the lighthearted one that I should have........sigh.....
That evening I went and picked up Jeremy and his roommate because my toilet was broken and needed repair, we drove over to Lowes to get the part and he was excitedly telling me how he had been working all week long mowing lawns with my mower I had loaned him and he made tons of money. I said wow that's great I am so proud of you, and added jokingly now you have money to get your mother a present for mothers day! He said what do you want, well I had been looking at and praying for a fire pit for the new house so that just slipped out, I didn't expect him to spend that much but we ended up walking out of there with a brand new one and Mike chipped in since he calls me Ma these days (even though he's 47 yrs old) I took them home Jeremy fixed the toilet and Mike dug up Azalea bushes from my yard for their yard.They been begging me for stuff and I didn't want them digging things up in case the township wanted them, and I had put so many years of work and money into this yard, but now I am at the point of whatever with that too, take whatever you want I am leaving soon. Below see a picture of Jeremy with the fire pit and wearing his hat we found him at Walmart..so good to see he's got the confidence to pull that off!
Thursday during the day I got a text from Randy saying that he drove by the house I am trying to get and he said it looked good, I spoke to Mike and he wanted to know again the price to settle on and I told him I didn't care, to try to get it under 200k but if I have to pay her 210 lets just do it. I just need to get moving now, do whatever you can do. After work I stopped and got an old broken and used weed whacker for Jeremy's business he's trying to start. Then I had to go to court with them, Mike had to face the girl they both used to date along with her new boyfriend and he needed moral support. It was the last thing I wanted to do with my evening but I agreed to go. Since it was Cinco De Mayo we went to Taco Bell for dinner, LOL then off to court...but in the end it got cancelled. Here he went through all that stress and anxiety for nothing....worry won't get you much... Oh and as for me worrying that Dustin don't care, not true, I came home today to a big bouquet of flowers see below:
Ya know my Grandmother spent most of her days worrying and fretting, she raised 7 kids during the depression and she also raised me for the first 6 or 8 yrs of my life, I felt bad that she worried so much and I always went to visit her and listen to her and drive her to get groceries and put her drops in her eyes. But in the end days of her life, when she was losing touch of her senses due to a brain tumor her favorite reply to most anything you asked her was -- WHATEVER -- she said it with such a peacefulness that you just knew she was going to be just fine, that her spirit was finally finding its rest....
Today I want you to take a look at all the things that you trouble your mind over and just say WHATEVER! I know in some instances that whatever will be a snide and frustrated one, but I also know that some of those whatever's can be true ones of peaceful resignation and just giving it to God to take care of..........whatever....so freeing! Try it!
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there.
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