6-27-11 Summer Sunshine!

6-27-11  Summer Sunshine!

This weekend has been about the sun shine coming back and how it helps make everything better...
Friday afternoon I was writing back and forth with some guys from Craigs list looking for dates, you hear bad stories out there but I am careful and also the guys on there seem to be more real and more interested in actually meeting than the dating site guys. Either that or its just that they don't know about the other sites so there is less other eye candy to distract them. LOL But anyway I met two worth meeting one a car salesman, age 52 and another, age 45 who promised to take me on a motorcycle ride. Nick and I made plans for sat night at 7 and Rich and I Sunday at 11am. After work it was raining and I was tired so I went out shopping alone for a short bit and didn't do much of anything else.

Saturday the skies were sunny and not the rain as prediicted so I got up at 6am and was out on my bike by 8 and for a ride and then a walk along Cliffwood Beach, its so lovely there I took a few pictures of all the birds. There were seagulls and egrets and geese and even a swan! They all flew off as I got closer, and as I walked up the beach they chattered as if to be complaining about me disturbing their territory, they'd move a bit further up and as I neared they'd move further and further away finally giving up and flying off. I headed back to my bike after collecting shells and stones and noticed all the burnt wood pieces on the beach and wondered if we could have fires there, it's always been my dream to have a fire ceremony on the beach. So i texted Randy and asked him and he said sure they don't care and I said awesome! He then asked me what I was doing that night as he was going to The Hook after work, I told him I had a date with a rich older guy........then thinking I wish I could see him instead I added that if the date ended early or something happened I'd text him and also that I was planning on going there tomorrow evening... He kept texting saying he was off starting July 5th and going to VT....we traded texts and ended up saying that we wanted to go on a few vacations together this summer to VT and he said he'd also take me to Cape May when I said I wanted to go there, I was all happy about that and wished even more I didn't have a date but I knew I needed to go, I need to find my own special someone..... I then woke Jeremy up and we headed to Flemington to get the rest of his things he had at the house.

The drive up wasn't bad and we went to the Post Office and did his change of address, I reminded him that as long as he lives with me he can't get his drivers licence back. He wasn't happy about that but I hope it will motivate him to get a GOOD job and get out of my house already! LOL  I love my son but I want him to live in the same neighborhood not the same house! We went to the house and loaded all the stuff he had into the car, I noticed the day lillies in bloom and reflected on the fact that this is the time of year that Gus and I moved in here, the closing was in June and our wedding was July 8th, we spent the weeks leading up to that gutting and re-doing and painting the whole interior of the place , with the help of his fathers workers that is.  He bought the house for us to live in and pay him rent then after a bit helped us to buy it. When we divorced I waived all child support and got the house (and the mortgage) for a dollar. It's served me well but now we are done with it...time for it to sell.... We drove back to Keyport and unloaded and I started laundry and we went to town for lunch as they were having a fair and ethnic food festival on main street. The car saleman guy called me a few times durning the day trying to figure out how and when we could get together that night, in the end he ened up having to cancel because they made him work late. I actually was happy about that and texted Randy that I was available after all but he texted back that he was going to go home and work on his truck...I felt hurt and also mad at myself as I relized I had probably wished this into happening, when he had asked me that morning to go to the hook I wished I didn't have a date and I could go, then the date cancelled but he had made other plans. He called then and we talked a bit and I just felt worse, especially when he said "well Jeremy doesn't want me coming around unless I am going to marry you". That got me pretty upset and I said thank you for reminding me that you won't marry me and hung up on him even though he had said we could meet at The hook the next day...

Sunday I got up and checked my facebook page and got a message from Martin, he is a young man from Australia who is traveling across the US in a van with his friend, they are photographers and are posting thier photo blog here: expedition to the new world .  He knows my sorority sister from college as they go to the same church and she asked me if I would be so kind as to allow them to park their van here and take them to a train station for while they are in NYC so I said sure, well he sent me a message saying that they'd be there at 6pm! Ugh well that decided that no Randy for me that day (things just keep us apart right now) I did go on my date with the guy with the motorcycle and I had a good time, he's a fireman and was pleasant and took me for a ride through all the shore towns down here next to me. I was so proud of myself! See I am not afriad to ride on the back of a motorcycle I am just afriad to ride on the back of Randy's! It is 40 years old afterall and he does ride like a bat out of hell too!. As we rode up rt 35 a pack of bikers, half of them with thier chicks on the back, rode past us and I felt like a real biker chick for the first time ever! LOL A nice size newer bike was just the ticket. Plus this guy said I leaned fine, he was used to riding people and balancing them, unlike Randy who wasn't. I am not critising him but for sure it was time for me to stop feeling like I was the defective one because I was afraid to ride with him. I really did and do want to ride on a bike with him, I mean how fun would that be? He and I the one thing we have in common is we LOVE good scenery, I wish he'd get a new bike and then show up at my house and ask me if I want to take a ride down the shore then I could say yes and happily hop on! Or take it up to Vermont and cruise the roads up there , how beautiful that would be...or a trip to the grand canyone....sigh....maybe someday I will find a guy I really like and he loves me and we can ride. But anyway after the bike ride I took and nap and waited for the boys, when they showed up and I got them safely on the train I got Jeremy and we drove down to The Hook to go for a walk and get a seafood dinner at Moby's. I missed Randy so much that I texted him and told him about riding the motorcyle and how I hoped he got a nice safe bike like that someday. He of course had to ask me if I did pokey with that guy. LOL

Monday I was off so I drug Jeremy the cranky one up before noon, after I had been up since 6 did tons of chores, packed a cooler full of food and sandwhiches I made, and the car was ready... we went down and I got him to stay all of 2hrs LOL but at least I got him out and I over heard him telling someone how nice it is down there and he had asked me how far it was so he could ride his bike there. When we got home he got a call about his unemployment and they are going to send him to the local office here to help him find a job and training. He felt better after that....I think I see glimmers of his depression lifting...the sun is so good for the soul...........and I got some lovely lovely things for my collection to charge with Reiki like my SpiritStones check it out:

It's summertime people! Get outside and soak up as much of it as you can, sun is lightening, nature is nurturing soak up as much as you possibly can! We are beings of light after all!

With Love and in the Light,  Cassie

Will Smith- Summertime
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6WpvBHdk1c