7-1-11 New Moon Rising
This weeks been all about moving into new things....
Monday evening I was supposed to have the back up date with Nick the car salesman guy but by 8pm I had not heard from him. Since I had been at The Hook that day and of course thought about Randy and I knew he was at work I texted him to whine a bit. His reply was: You still got me.....ugh I don't have him SHE has him I wanted to say something snotty but instead I just said. I wish... I then got to thinking of something that I need him to do for me and asked and he said sure anytime so I told him perhaps when I am off on the holiday weekend.. I know better than to plan ahead with him because I know if the boys call he will blow me off in a heartbeat, but still, he has value in my life so long as I never forget the status of our relationship and want more than he is capable of being. I then got an e-mail from Nick saying he was thinking of me, and he wanted to see me I said too late for tonight and I am busy till friday so he said ok lets see if we can meet friday. I will pencil you in I told him..
Tuesday I was back at the office and swamped with work because the new girl is still not trained to back me up yet. I looked at all the work to be done, the fact that I had a three day work week this and the next and was having my office space moved the following week and that she wanted me to drive to PA to do face time training with her (it was only fair) and wrote and begged off having to dive to PA till after the 18th, hopefully by then she won't need me to drive over there. LOL I have been cautioned time and again about the value of face time but I still never got myself wrapped around the corporate politics game and doupt I ever will. After work I met with my friend who is selling Green Electricity and wanted me to become a seller too. I paid close attention but saw that is not for me not at this time, maybe in the future I told her. I did discuss with her the idea of doing some workshops together for mutual gain and she loved that idea and is going to come down soon to see my space I have here for that.
In the evening I had an event, the Sandy Hook Beach concert and it was soooo nice! The weather was ideal, and even though only two people ended up finding me we had a lovely lovely time chatting, sitting in the sand and watching the band. There was a 50/50 raffle and it go up to $7,000 so I played it! I prayed Dear God let me win and my little voice said: Are you going to give it to your son? I thought a few beats and said no but I still didn't win, I do feel that one of the reasons I am poor right now is so I don't spoil this kid and he has to make his own way in life. It's funny but part of the conversation that night with the new gal I met was about how we need to stop being so materialistic and dependent on money and how much meaner and rude the people who have money are as compared to the people who have less. I am soooo much happier in my new area where they are blue collar like back home as compared to my old town with all the rich people. Randy used to sit in church with me and as I would admire an expensive purse or SUV he would tell me how they got thier money , he had a gift that way and he could see a persons past, this one cheated the school board out of money, that ones skimming off his clients hedge funds he would say... (can you see why I liked being with him?) but anyway that's part of the energy of the new moon, for us to get away from materialism... one day all these castles we sold our souls to build will wash away and we have to go back to the old ways...
Thursday lots of wrapping up things at the office and then I went to meet Anthony for this new project he is getting involved in a video production thing. He wanted me to get involved but I don't think I am because they are meeting at 8pm on a weeknight and it just won't fit my schedule. I can help him to advertise though. I was happy when Randy called so I had an excuse to leave. He knew I was in his area for his UPS route and wanted to know if I wanted to meet him for a late dinner. Course he didn't ask till I had already pulled out of the parking lot and headed towards home and I didn't want to fight the traffic. We penciled in plans for the next night, I told him I am not ever going to make plans in advance with him, that I know he's not going to marry me but that it was like if you are starving and you want a steak dinner but someone offers you a hot dog, you may as well take the the hot dog and keep looking for the steak dinner. I know that sounds incredibly rude but that's how it is with him from my perspective. He is going to Vermont tuesday and wanted me to go but I am going back to work. The reason he is not going now when I am off is because he wants to spend the holiday weekend setting off fireworks and playing with kids who are half his age, and it has nothing to do with being a father figure he wants to be one of them! He even confided to me that he drools over the girls they bring home. *sigh* He will never ever mature to manhood, he does not want to, and I want a man to marry me not a 43 yr old kid.....but in the meantime he's a nice boy to play with...
Friday I got up and got my newsletter out and my events posted and finished writing this blog. I also got the boys from the train, they were off to Washington DC next. Then the rest of the weekend I am going to play! Friday is also a New-Moon-Eclipse and a time for even more releasing of materialism and getting back to coomunion with scource. I plan to celebrate this and I hope you do as well.......
Let go of the material things in your life, get back to your creator, prepare for the new month and the new moon and see how far you can go in your evolution.......
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
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