8-26-11 Prepare and Have Faith

8-26-11   Prepare and Have Faith

Monday evening I got a text from Randy... I miss U....I replied with: Sure is taking that cable guy a long time to show up at your house....he replied that he fixed it himself....so I asked why hadn't he come to take Jeremy to the car parts store for me....he ignored that and asked what have I been up to.....I just replied that I been busy.....then he finally texted that he had a thousand things he been doing he'd have to tell me on the phone....I sent back that I had no time for his excuses and to call me when he had time to take him....his reply was: so why did you ask me? I had no answer for that, it shut me up.... I was also sitting here posting my blog link to my Facebook pages when I got to my Spiritual site someone messaged me and said how amazing it was that I had friend requested them today when they were just looking for their own stones! She said she uses them to help her with her spinal problems and she asked me some questions about them. I was so happy to have helped and I told her to trust in the synchronicity of the universe always! It's funny too because I had been praying just an hour before that I needed a way to supplement my income. I had discussed with Mary that I needed to make more and she said that my boss wants to promote me but is disappointed that I don't want to go back and get my degree as he sees no other way to promote me. I told her I already went down that road and firmly decided and was guided to make extra money in other ways, helping others. This was a confirmation of that choice....

Tuesday was an office day, I was buzzing around getting stuff done and Randy kept coming to mind so I decided to clear things out of my head and I sent him an e-mail.  I don't was the subject line: 
I don't miss you that is...when you raced out of my house last Sunday night w/o satisfying me as I had you that was the start of it...i know u were racing home to HER so she won't leave you- u were so upset she may have had a date last sat...and i can't for the life of me understand why you want to stay with someone you claim is so mean to u and there is no love there...

the other thing that's bothering me is i am really seeing that you just don't like my son, never did maybe never will, and he wanted you to be his friend so badly

you wanted me to send him to live in Florida with a heavy drug user to get rid of him

well i love my son and I want him in my life and I want a man in our life who likes him and wants to be a friend to him......i cant make you care about him the way you have her kids, it just is what it is

i need some time and some space to try and find a man who loves me and wants to be there for me
to give to me all the things that you give to her and never gave to me


if i decide I miss you I will let you know           


i would offer friendship but you always stop coming over when i don't give you pokey.... i don't care what you say, actions speak louder than words.......plus i really don't want to spend yet another birthday praying you will get me something and not even getting a card


take care

I felt much better, very decisive of me but I meant it more than I ever have and this time there really wasn't any pain. Sort of like when you finally get brave and pull off the old dead scab, fearing its going to hurt and finding out it was barely hanging on and underneath you are all already healed!

Sitting at work in the afternoon an earthquake hit NJ, they say it started in Virginia I can't imagine what was going on there if it shook us up so much. I tried to call Jeremy, even sent a text and got no reply. I did not worry too much though and finally did reach him, he was in the basement and hadn't felt anything. I posted some stuff on facebook about praying for the planet and such, my cousin's son, who'd deployed in Korea right now commented saying how is that supposed to make any difference. I thought about it and posted this to illistrate the planet's   response to negative and positive  It may seem silly but it is similar to this really! Later that evening I got a text from Randy once he went to work, he said: Are we still going to Vermont? I sent back no, and was going to drop it but then my anger flooded up (which shows me I am not as healed as I thought I was) and I said to him sure I'll go if I can bring Jeremy, he can bring a friend, we get two rooms and I don't have to satisfy you, and you pay for the whole trip. After all that's what he claimed to me that he did for HER. That shut him up...

Wednesday was a work from home day.  My buddy Mike called me bright and early and was trying to get me to go last minute to a concert. I told him I had plans that I couldn't change. I would have loved to have gone but I need to stick to this yoga stuff. I was glad that I did too because I made $40 and the people had a lovely time! Nancy and I agreed to start doing it on every other Sunday also. I also contacted Mary to tell her what I had seen the night before... well you may recall the house on Sunset that I wanted so badly but they rented it to family instead of giving me the rent to own deal, well I keep riding my bike over there to check on it, I can see they don't care for and love it the way I would, and Mary had said that would happen and the house would not want them as it does me and eventually they would have to leave due to a break up... Well driving home the night before, and going back out shopping later in the evening I saw the truck from the house parked at the GO-GO Rama all evening! Now I certainly do not rejoice in peoples problems but I did take this as a sign that what was "seen" in the future could be true, and I had had that vison of working on that deck.......I know I was sent here to bless the waters....

Thursday everyone was talking about Hurricane Irene and making plans and sending warnings. Several of my friends told me to pack up and get out, I didn't feel led to worry though. My spirt told me to stay put, that was after all why I was sent here to pray and to heal the water what better chance to stand as a beacon of lightworking energy than with a hurricane and possible flooding coming. I am not foolish though I prepared, instead of going to my event I went to Walmart and the grocery store and got water and flashlights and propane for my camping stove. Walmart was packed and already out of flashlights, I wished I had listed to my voice when it told me to go to the dollar store and get them! My friend told me they had them when she checked in on me and I told her. Driving back home I had Jeremy get a SpiritStone out of the glove compartment and I tossed one in at the drawbridge. That night facebook was all abuz! I did take time to watch a neat video posted you should check it out: Lesson on The Rise of Atlantis its good to learn stuff....

Friday work from home and more messages about the hurricane, I got a call from my friend telling me to evacuate, still I wasn't worried and wanted to stay firm and pray for the area for as long as I could.   Wendy called me to set up times for a meditation workshop, she is giving it and I am proiding the space and the advertising so I get to go for free! I asked what she was "getting" about the storm and it meshed with mine, I was glad not only for the storm predicition but that my intuition is growing. I have spent far too much of my life not relying on ME and my inner guidance and running around all over the place listening to everyone else. She did say send angels and prayers and to keep abreast of the notices as things do change. I did put stuff away and I did pack a bag and one of my friends said I can come to her place so tommorow I might we will see. I am preparing AND having faith, I am not worrying about this, worry brings fear and fear brings what you fear. If God came and took me home today I am ready....but I know he probably won't, there is much work for me to do here yet.......

So today I want you all to prepare for the possible storms that can come in your life and your world but I don't want you to worry about them! Because when you create a spirit of peace around you that is what you will have, even in the face of a strom you will be safe.....

With Love and in the Light, Cassie